You may call it na nagpaloko na rin ako dito sa mga PTC but since I'm spending every night faced in front of the internet doing other stuff, I might as well do something else with it while earning money. It may not be much but its still income and no brains needed to use. And from what I've heard, they really pay you.

First of all, I realized that I don't want to patronize those PTCs that will pay you less than $0.01 per click even if they say its lesser time to credit, its going to really take you more time to earn the minimum payout.

For those first-timers who have never heard about PTCs, it simply means, paid-to-click. You just click on link (mostly ads) and view them for 30 seconds then you will be paid $0.01 each. Minimum pay out simply means the only time you may cash out your proceeds and it usually depends on what site. They differ as well how you get paid. They have PayPal, AlertPay, E-Gold or even sometimes they will pay you in cheques.

The one way for you to earn more is to actually get referrals and have those referrals be active in the PTC site. Each click of your referral means credit to your account as well which is usually $0.01 per click also. So if you know a lot of people who you can convince into joining the PTC under your name, guaranteed, it would be a bigger cash out.

So anyway first I recommend you to open your account where they can pay you. Opening up an account in PayPal and AlertPay is free. Its just like signing up for an email address.

Now the PTC sites:

Earnings: All clicks are 1 cent and about 7-11 ads per day. Referral commissions 100%.
How to earn: View Ads for 30 seconds
Payment: Pays via AlertPay, Buxto Card. $10 payout.
Comments: Started in June 2007, but payout may take sometime.

Earnings: All clicks are 1 cent but few ads per day. You're lucky to get about 4-5 ads.
How to earn: Click the ads.
Payment: Pays via check monthly. $10 minimum payout.
Comments: They will pay you by check so you don't need paypal or alertpay for this.

Earnings: Clicks are one cent. 50% referral commissions.
How to earn: View Ads
Payment: Pays via AlertPay. $2 minimum payout.
Comments: All clicks are 1 cent but few ads per day. You're lucky to get about 4-5 ads. Low minimum payout.

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Would you rather....

know that your partner cheated on you in the past once or just leave it in the dark?

be strangers with the person you still love who left you or be friends still?

stay with the one you love or go back to the person making you believe in 'what if's'?

be with someone who treats you badly or be alone for a long time?

be happy with someone who loves you or be sad with someone you love?

be with someone who loves you near you or be with someone you love who lives in another country?

be with a great career but a bullsh!t love life or non progressive career but a blooming love life?

pagod na ko magisip ng forbidden questions hehe...

But seriously it really has been awhile since I put my last entry here. I was still working in another call center and about to start having double shift with the new job I took at the time. Well unfortunately with that new job, I only lasted for 2 months not because I don't like the job but because I thought I was sick. I started vomitting on Aug. 11, 2006 all the time. They had to put a dextrose on me for 2 days and I had to go through endoscopy just to check what might be wrong with me. I had to resign from work because everytime I travel, I just vomit. Little did I know that by September 21, I would get the shock of my life. I was 3 months pregnant.

Now, I have my own little bouncing baby girl. I'm no longer with the father even though we have been together for 3 years. We're still friends because we do have somthing in common. Would it be possible to have not regret getting pregnant out of wedlock but having regret in getting pregnant by that person?

Ay get ready... My next posts would all be either extreme happiness with my baby or extreme sadness, depression and frustration

How I miss those college days... and as per Joe's request, Beerkada is one heck of a very good way to reminisce those times...

I'm now 23 years old but I am so fond of reading comics... I started with Archie comics when I was young to the point of really spending hundreds of pesos to buy the latest comics. And for people my age, we know how high the value of a hundred pesos is when we were around 12 years old. And it came to a point wherein my Archie collection took up a whole cabinet. I wanted to go on but the price of Archie just went up and the pages are getting thinner. It was no longer practical to collect them so instead. And if you get sick of reading the same comics even though you have about 500 of them, its time to let go. I remember going to the Inquirer office to meet with someone who was suppose to buy several comics and even though I was armed with a whole box of them, I left that office with just a few measly comics. Then I started to get into the Pugad Baboy comics. At least they're cheaper and it takes such a long time before the next issue is sold to the public hehe

I'm tired.... because I haven't had a decent sleep

I'm tired.... because I have my eyes exposed to the TV/Computer for so long

I'm tired.... because I have been doing the same thing on my job everyday for 8

hours each day

I'm tired.... because I have to say the same things for 8 hours each day

I'm tired.... because I'm always having the same fight with my bf

I'm tired.... because my mom and I are always fighting about the same thing

Funny that the words "I'm tired" can give so many meanings that may not be related

to one another

Have you ever experienced missing someone so much you just wanna move in with that person just for the sake to be together 24/7? I thought at one time, I already felt that way and I thought my will at that time to do it was strong. Well... I was just 17 years old at that time with my 2nd love and during that particular moment that I felt this way was when I thought our parents would separate us after they would learn about the things we have done (nothing super naughty just some bad things to do at that age). And to be fair with me, the guy at that time also felt the same way and if I remember correctly he was the one who put the idea into my head.

Now, I'm about to turn 23 years old with. I have a job, my mom and grandpa don't care much about who i go out with as long as i'm happy. And i'm with my nth special someone. But tonight it just hit me... I miss him so much. The name that I have never mentioned in this blog for more than one year just because i don't want to. I miss warren so much. I don't know why and I certainly don't want to feel this way. Normally I would have welcomed this kind of feeling with any other guy. You know being so giddy and so in love but not with him. I tell myself over and over again not to get attached... With any other guy, why not... but not with warren... I actually texted him how i wish when he goes to sleep tonight, i would be there beside him and i'm not just saying it for "lambing" because believe me, he is the last guy who would want to hear "lambing" stuff even from his own gf. Let alone would I know if he also feels the same way that I do about our situation. 

How would it feel like to look forward to going home to the person you love? Don't get me wrong I'm not in a hurry to settle down. I'm just curious on satisfying my urge to be with my someone special.

Before and until now, I don't like wearing clothes that would be revealing. It feels nice to get attention from people but maybe from just close friends and not from just anyone you pass by everyday. I don't like wearing them because I believe that this is 75% of the reason why the male species do the act of raping someone. I mean like in my case, when I see a voluptous girl who's wearing low necklines and short skirts, I myself would want to jump that girl so why would the male species think differently or worse? Some of my friends were already able to see me wearing a couple of very short skirts or revealing blouses in my time but I make it a point that at the time, I would be sitting most of the time and I have a car with me. I don't want a guy to have a reason saying that it was all my fault why he was provoked to do stuff to me because he was tempted with what I was wearing.

But I'm just curious... Is it also provoking a guy to jump you when you're friendly to them? After saying no to the guy several times while he's doing it and resisting him with all your strength? Is it still the girl's fault because of her attitude towards guys? Hope a couple of guys could shed some light into this topic for me... For my example I have always been sweet with guys even though they are just close friends of mine and I think I would always be this way but I don't history to repeat again just because of being naive about this type of situation... I always thought that a guy would be provoked to rape a girl if and only if, they were tempted because of the way the girl is dressed up, they are stoned or drunk, or if they really like the girl so much it becomes an obsession and the girl doesn't feel the same way...

This email was actually just sent to me... I wish I can think this way... but I just can't even though how many times I've read it or how many times I've tried to push it to my brain, I just can't... maybe I'm just not that type of person... maybe I just live to loving someone... or maybe... ndi kc ako maganda hehe kc sbi nga para sa mga magaganda to e :P

Before, hinahabol kita pero di mo ako pinapansin.
Tapos isang araw nawala ako,  hinanap mo ako at
tinanong, "Bakit ka nagsawa?" Ngumiti ako, "Hindi ako
nagsawa. Natauhan lang."  Pwede mo kong lokohin pero
wag kang  magpapahuli sakin. Pwede mo kong palitan
pero siguraduhin mong mas mahal mo  siya sakin. Pwede
mo kong iwan pero siguraduhin mong kaya mo. Kasi pag
ako sobrang nasaktan, wala ka nang babalikan.

Ang Boys? Pag trip ka,  magpapakilala. Kaibigan kuno
hanggang pumorma na.    Tapos  pag  nahulog ka na,
ayun, goodbye na dahil sawa na sila. Pero dapat walang
iiyak at smile lang tayo. Punyeta, anong silbi ng
karma?

I fell in  love and got hurt but I didn't shed too
much tears nor did I ask him to  love me again.
Instead, I stood up proudly and said, "Ganyan talaga
ang  magaganda! Hindi bagay sa tanga!"

Simple lang para hindi ka  masaktan. Kapag minahal ka,
mahalin mo din.  Kapag  ginago ka,  gaguhin mo rin.
Pero kapag umiyak ka, tanga ka! Ginago ka  na nga,
iiyakan mo pa?

Pag iniwan ka ng mahal mo, wag mo siyang sisihin!
Kausapin  mo siya ng  harap-harapan at sabihin mong,
"Ingat, tanga ka pa  naman!"

Masakit pag iniwan ka ng mahal mo. Pero wag kang
magagalit ng  husto. Kahit papano may  pinagsamahan
naman kayo, diba? Kaya for the last time
yakapin mo siya at  ibulong mo, "Gago, kukulamin
kita!"

Girls, talo daw sayo sa mga boys?  Papayag kayo? Sige,
pag niligawan tayo, sagot agad. Pag iniwan tayo? Ok
lang. Kapag sinabi nilang, "Uy,  ex ko."  Alam niyo
sagot diyan? "Ay, ambisyoso."

If the one you love doesn't love you back,  don't get
depressed. Just think about it for a while, maybe cry
a bit  then wipe your tears and say, "Ang weird naman
niya. Di siya pumapatol  sa magaganda!"

You only got one life so live it well., one heart so
take  good care, one soul so keep it pure. One
boyfriend? What a waste! Make  it two or
more!

Sayang ganda natin!

Pag sinabi sayo ng  mahal mo na ayaw na niya sayo,
hayaan mo lang. Wag kang iiyak at  magpapakagago!
Imbis na iyakan mo siya, ngitian mo lang at sabihin mo
ang ganito, "So, pano? Bye na! Naghihintay na ang
kapalit  mo!"

Who cares about break-ups? Oo nga, masakit. Makirot sa
puso.  Pero tandaan mo: a break-up isn't only an end
to a  relationship. It's also a beginning of a new one
and an end to a living hell called "ex".

Love someone with all your heart... but when can you say that your love is too much?

I've been known to be someone who realliy gives my all to someone who I consider special and everybody seems to think I always give too much of what I should be giving. A lot of the girls get taken for granted but most of us try to get out when it becomes harmful to us.

Is too much to ask from a guy to stay the way they were when you started the relationship? or is it really the "ka-plastican" stage?

Most people would say when they would learn things that happens to my relationship would be "there's a fine line between loving too much and stupidity" which i honestly believe. But what can I do, its my sickness...

Is it too much when the guy expects you to be the guy in your relationship? Where you're expected to do all the sacrifices and treat him like the king?

Is it too much when you have to obey his every whim while a slight whine from you would be a major cause for you two to blow up at each other?

(2 b continued)

I don't know what's wrong with me that I go and see these awfully cheesy FIlipino movies. Or maybe I'm just being a good daughter to my mom who would like to ask for my company while watching these movies. I would always think that I really don't want to watch them but after seeing the movie, I would then feel my heart pounding or my eyes tired from crying.

In this particular movie, I didn't shed any tear but it made me reflect the times I were in John Lloyd's character, Manuel (Palits), position.

I know the people who would be reading this story would again condemn me for what happened and I am so goddamn tired of explaining myself. Judge me for all I care. I would probably say you're all right with what you think about me or I won't be experiencing extreme pain today if I were decent enough with the things I've done in the past.

Three years ago, my long term bf introduced me to his best friend. For the first time in my whole life, I experienced what people would call as love at first sight. I tried to ignore what I felt thinking that it was impossible and that maybe it was just a physical thing. But come to think of it, he's not the head turner type. For whatever reason, I thought it was a good idea to set up that guy to my best friend. So in other words, the four of us were inseperable for sometime.

Now how did I know that what I felt then was something more. The guy and I got closer with each other through this set up also meaning we also got to talk to each other especially on the phone. We discovered that we have some similarities about issues. I just thought that maybe opposites do attract since I'm with my bf and the guy has a mutual understanding with my best friend when my bf and best friend think the same way.

Then things started to happen. I remember one time when the guy was starting to be in good terms with my best friend, we (the four of us) went to watch a movie. Me and my bf were walking while they were behind us. While walking in a mall, sometimes you just really have to look behind you and then right there I saw them holding each other's hands. I quickly turned my head back to front but my heart literally stopped for a second. Inside the movie house I really tried to just focus on the movie and try to ignore what was going on beside me.

Every time I see them together, even if I was holding someone else's hand or feel so loved by my bf, I can't ignore the fact that I know I am not looking at their situation in a normal way. I think my bf during that time felt it too because he would be extra sweet when we were with them but I would just ignore him more or sometimes even be pissed off with him.

Then the major heart breaker happened to me. One time I checked in a hotel where a seminar was going on that we needed to attend for our class. I was suppose to be with my guy best friend who would also help me with my computer programming assignment. But at the last minute where I already have checked in, he backed out and said he can't make it. At first I thought I can just spend this time alone in the room but when the night started to creep in, the stillness of the room started to freak me out. I called for someone to accompany me through the night. I called the guy. I honestly told him that I was not looking forward to spending the night with my bf because I just want to spend it with a friend, someone platonic so there won't be any temptation. I really did not want anything to happen that night whether it may be with my bf or with another guy. He declined saying I might not be tempted but he might since I'm still a girl and he is still a guy. What he did is he was the one who called my bf. In other words, my bf went to the hotel but his parents insisted on him to bring along his younger brother.

The next day, my bf and I invited the guy and and my best friend to go the room. The four of us were in the room while my bf's younger brother went to the hotel's pool. We started being sweet with our partners. I thought that with my bf there being sweet, I can ignore the other couple whispering sweet nothings to one another. I was wrong. I just made an excuse of going to the seminar and leaving the three of them in the room. I left my cellphone inside the room. I attended the seminar until I realized this fact. I opened the door of the room and went straight inside thinking why the room was so dark until I literally froze on the place I was standing on. Right in front of me is the guy with my best friend making out. My bf and his bro was nowhere in sight. I can feel the tears starting to form but I had the decency not to let them fall down on my cheeks. They laughed when they saw me but I just got my cellphone and turned away to get out. But I stayed near the bathroom door for a couple of minutes trying to compose myself and still trying to let go of the tearing feeling in my heart. They can't see me but I can still hear them.

Ironically when I looked at my cellphone there was a message from my bf. He texted that he was by the pool with his bro and I should not go in the room because I might see something not meant to be seen. Little did he know. When I followed them by the pool I just stared at the horizon thinking that I have never experienced more pain than I did during that time.

Now my dream happened. I am now with the guy... or am I? I never thought I would experience more pain now that I have more doubts than ever.

Anyway back to the main topic. I know John Lloyd was just an actor in the movie but I can definitely say I shared the pain he acted for...